"Take the adventure, heed the call, now ere the irrevocable moment passes! 'Tis but a banging of the door behind you, a blithesome step forward, and you are out of the old life and into the new!" Kenneth Grahame - Wind in the Willows


The Fragrance in the Air

How near the beautiful shore 
My small bark drifted;
Slowly, without rudder or sail. 
And I all the while gazing -
Longing to run aground there, 
Even if half dead in violent storm.

Yet neither wave nor wind moved
Me nearer to sweet ecstasy,
Or farther off to harsh reality.
Endless days I drifted too near
And too far away.  I could only
Smell the fragrance in the air.


Like the Morning Mist

Your presence (it seemed) slowly filled my room
Like the morning mist fills the valley, nestled close
Within the comfort of the ever-watching hills.
My thoughts and self awareness became lost
In the softly glimmering stillness of Yourself. I
Quieted my soul within to hear the sweet distilling
Of Your dew, the cautious currents of Your whispered


Light denied me -
Could not hide me
From its painful
Staring gaze.

Love denied itself
To hide me;
Drew from light
Its loving grace.

Love Crosses The Barren Void

Light crosses the barren void,
A near infinite abyss,
To consume the object of love's desire
In vehement flame.

Love weeps to own what it cannot
Possess, and gives itself
To satiate the flame, which consuming
Is consumed.  What then remains?

The love, the object, and the flame
Are all as one, and all the same;
Each found only in the other
("Thou art called by My name").

Lost yet saved love finds itself
Fully in the fury of the flame;
Love finds itself in the object
Of desire, which bears its name.

Love crosses the barren void,
The infinite abyss to
Consummate the object of desire
In purest light of flame.



Reconciliation is the greatest expression of forgiveness.

2 Corinthians 5
18 Now all things are of God, who has reconciled us to Himself through Jesus Christ, and has given us the ministry of reconciliation, 19 that is, that God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, not imputing their trespasses to them, and has committed to us the word of reconciliation.



Death, though an enemy,
Comes as a friend 
And gently says,
"This is the end."
"Of death," I whisper
With a smile as he
Removes the outer layers
Of who I am.  And then,
I walk away.


Jeremiah 31:3

"I have loved you from all eternity, because I have loved you, because I AM love; therefore I have drawn you to Myself with loving-kindness throughout all the days of your life."



There is a freedom that is not volitional.  It is the freedom of intimacy with God.  I am free in love, that is, I move freely in the purity of union with God which does not involve my will because my will has been submitted to the perfect will of God which is, simply, that he loves me and I love him.

This is the freedom that the soul has apart from external things that still may require decisions.  It is the freedom of who I am apart from what I do.  I am absolutely free to be who I am in union with God.  I have no decisions yet to make about who I am - any decisions that present themselves to my mind concerning who I am are outside of the union with God as to their source, content, and argument.  They do not come from the mind of Christ, but from the flesh, the world, and the devil.  I have no obligation to consider them as they contain no truth.

Therefore there is a freedom that has absolutely nothing to do with the freedom of the will.  It is a freedom from decisions, not a freedom in decisions.  "If the son shall make you free, you shall be free indeed."  The prodigal son had absolute freedom to be a  son; he had no freedom to be a servant.  He could not be a servant; he was a son.

Nothing can separate me from the love of God because I have been united to his essence and I am a partaker of his nature - God is love.  I am not choosing to be united to him; I have been united to him.  I am not trying to be loved by God, or to love him; I am in union with his love.

Confession is not to restore my union with God.  It is to reorient my mind to that union which already is, and cannot be broken.  The blood of Christ cleanses me from all unrighteousness, not to restore my union with God, which cannot be broken, but to remove the distraction of guilt.  The holiness of God is the purity of his love.  Guilt obscures the purity of his love because I think I do not deserve it.  Therefore he removes the memory of unrighteousness so I have no more consciousness of sin, and I am not distracted from his love.  I am free in who I am and in what I think of myself in relation to the holiness of his love.

"God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in Him." (I John 4:16b NKJV)

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